So I am Back

functioningdrunk · 5 months

Thanks you are right, I just had a small lapse last evening. I am not going to do it again. I took 40+ beers and a bunch of wine. Took it all to the office and told everyone to have at it I was finished drinking. Ready to start again, thanks for your reply!

HeathenBarbie · 5 months

Good work! I am on day 5 here myself, I was worried about not being able to sleep, but last night after getting my ass kicked at my restaurant I was barely able to get up for my 9-5 today. I work at a start up and everyone was drinking this afternoon, I got asked if I wanted a beer, that clinking glass sound was really tempting. I said nope, I have to go get my daughter, packed up my laptop and got out of there. I made beef stroganoff(no sherry hahaha) and we put up the tree, haven't thought about a drink once and am so ready to put her to bed and get to sleep myself.

You are awesome! Glad you are keeping yourself busy! Keep it up, this will be my first non hungover Saturday in a while, sounds like yours too, have a blast!

downNout83 · 5 months

Cheers to being sober for three days! I am 4 days in and have not yet had the temptation of the grocery store. I'm glad you didn't cave in! Raising my glass of ice water!

functioningdrunk · 5 months

I will do that! Thanks for the offer, see you all Tuesday night with an update and my party plans.

Oscar_Boscus · 5 months

Nice work! You have some great friends.

functioningdrunk · 5 months

Yeah, I just woke up and am getting ready to. I can't believe how easy it has been to quit this time, I actually got a good nights rest. Looking forward to just feeling better and better.

functioningdrunk · 5 months

Ha, they aren't my friends so much as employees and the would be really hard to replace. They are employees first and vital to my business so I can take some ribbing. I actually thought about it last night and am glad I have that environment there, the kitchen is a stressful place.

functioningdrunk · 5 months

Thanks was keeping the beers around in case I got really sick or something. My first post everyone had me convinced I was going to die and needed to run to the hospital. I feel like complete shit, but nothing I can't handle on my own so far.

HeathenBarbie · 5 months

Tonight is my second night sober and it is tough I was drinking a fifth every night and a couple beers for a year straight. I am a 31 year old single father to a four year old little girl and know exactly how you feel. I have a successful restaurant and a great career. I am seriously flawed though, when my daughter goes to bed the nights I have her I drink, and I drink hard. How selfish of me, what if she needed help in the middle of the night and I can't even help myself. I finally had it Sunday, I was wasting my life, my potential, wasting away. I should be running on all cylinders for the people I am employed to, the employees that depend on me for a paycheck and a 4 year old little girl that has no idea her dad is a fucking mess yet. It is time to stop, you can put it down! I hope I can continue what I have started try and join me. Even though I felt like shit all day, I feel better than being drunk and hungover.

sauza · 5 months

Work at night, go out after, sleep all day, repeat. I think it also takes a certain kind of person to work in a high pressure environment and on top of that it is so hard to find people willing to do the work. Sometimes I will lower my standards knowing this person parties a lot because I have to fill a gap.

functioningdrunk · 5 months

Good for you! I am looking forward to being sober for the first time in a while. I used it to escape, destress, forget, sleep, I hope I can just get some sleep tonight. I hope to see you around, I plan on this being a permanent change.

VodkaSlave · 5 months

I enjoyed your blog, especially the part about the weight gain. I am 50 lbs overweight and it is from booze. Keep up your recovery! I am on night one myself. Keep writing you are very funny.

functioningdrunk · 5 months

That's good advice, I really had to control myself from stopping at the grocery store after work to pick up a bottle of gin, I am so used to doing it. If I can string together enough of those days I can make it long term. Haven't touched those beers yet btw, headed to bed, really tired.

functioningdrunk · 5 months

I don't want to try and control my drinking I want to quit, forever. Today I worked from home until dinner service at my restaurant. I took my dog for a long walk and I cooked myself a healthy lunch of tilapia, steamed vegetables, and a baked potato. I really enjoy cooking(hence the restaurant) So I am going to focus on adding to my skill set and learn more techniques, etc with my free time. I am also going to get back to the gym. I joined one two months ago and haven't been once.

I plan on using this forum for support, my family is a bunch of alcoholics and I'm too embarrassed to confide in my friends.

I am opening a new restaurant in March and am also going to focus on that effort. I also need to remodel one of my rental apartments kitchens. I think if I just stay busy as hell it won't be so bad. I just need to get through this next week. Several years ago I quit and remember being a cranky asshole by day 3. Then after a week it was like a fog lifted. That lasted about 3 months and I lost 50lbs and was doing great. I just need to do that again and keep doing it.

sauza · 5 months

Congrats! My first day as well. I own a restaurant and have been in kitchens my whole working life(only about 10 years). Restaurants are usually full of workers that are users/abusers/etc. Do you think this will affect you? Is your kitchen like this?

functioningdrunk · 5 months

I did call a few others this morning, hopefully they are more responsive. I live in a major city and there are tons of options. I will keep you posted.

functioningdrunk · 5 months

Yeah, I don't expect to become a super hero. I really want to open a second location of my restaurant, but drinking is just getting in the way. I fully know that my decision to drink is all on me and I just keep doing it. I'm pretty sure my bad habits will still be my bad habits with or without alcohol, I am just in a fog now. I called a medical detox facility yesterday...they said they would call back in one hour...they didn't. Such is my luck.

functioningdrunk · 5 months

Yeah, it is obvious that I have to take personal responsibility, but am lost as to how I get there. I don't even want to at this point. I didn't think my post was some self wallowing pity party trying to make me seem blameless. I feel like I asked pertinent questions to solicit advice from complete strangers that may have been in my shoes before and gotten better.

functioningdrunk · 5 months

I live downtown in a major metropolitan city. That is a good suggestion, I will check it out.

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