Here's a novel idea - You are kind of an ignorant cunt, aren't you? Perhaps you should start by asking if I've tried therapy. The answer is a resounding yes, up to 15 hours a week at one point. Why am I not doing it now? I had no insurance and the state gave me EVERYTHING I needed in terms of drug addiction/mental health support groups, therapists, psychiatrists. I have 2 fractures in my vertebrae, a herniated disc, bleeding stomach ulcers, liver pain, a deformed rectum(from trauma.. ), pelvic inflammatory disease, benign abdominal tumors, and we'll throw in the pinched nerve just for fun. I had no choice but to get on my mothers insurance once I got so far along in being clean. I needed to get my chronic pain and illness under control if I were to stay clean. There goes my state coverage. I can BARELY afford the copays for all this medical shit, I would never be able to afford the deductibles and copays to get back into the program that helped me so much, I've tried.